IT GOES LIKE THIS:
Well Tonight was the night that I never thought I would Have to sit through.
Have you ever ask your self why things happen?
do we think that they happen for a reason, or for a cause, and or maybe they just happen. For one dam reason. Well tonight this one night had it's reason, and the one who gave me my life who i call my father said it all. I really didn't want to go through this i knew the outcome of it and I didn't want to see it. The pain just ripped me we sat down my two sisters and I. and there it was the disappointment, the liar, and the betrayal.
At first I had told myself "if i don't say nothing" that should kill him wit the disappointment i had, and the look in my eyes. So than it began , we talk my lil sister started to say " So why did you leave in the first place....."
and than she bust out in tears.My dad got up and said "give me a hug"
She said "NO! don't touch me".
And right there it felt like a movie , like this wasn't suppose to happened or like I was in denied it had its reason's though. so i knew it was real. The night went on my sister thought that we my lil sister and I weren't talking as much as her. I think that me just hearing him out was good enough for me.
Do we as people eve think that when we hurt someone we love, it's not a big deal?
WRONG!
its a huge deal.
thats the person WE love, that been there, thats help us, that always had are backs, and the ones who had a shoulder to cry on. But all that goes out the window went your love for them has been a lie for 6 years. And to found the worst thing in the book that they did too you. CHEAT ON YOU.
But a minute though this person always been there for you and said that he would never hurt you in any dam way. But it goes out that Fucking window faster than the speed of light. And when you caught them with your own eyes its even worst.
Well thats what my dad did to my mom for 6 long years. He played as all like fools, and not only that my mom or my sisters never had a clue about what was going on. But now that his secret is out * not to make matters worst but my parents were really never devoice. They were still married but my dad had moved out 6 years ago.
So his secret is out and now that we know its a huge deal. My mom doesn't know how to react to this, and but I think personal she doesn't want to see my dad go, and to be with this other woman. What and how I reacted to this I had a idea for a vary long time. i went to this lady house 4 years ago to help my dad with some work, and when he yelled at this lady i was blown away from it. I was like what the hell he can't do that to a customer. so years went on and i just never thought about it again.
So it really hurts me inside that he as my father would do this to me as his son. i mean I'm his son! for crying out loud, and i think i was the one got played as a fool the most. Because I went there to her house and went inside to sit on the couch and never knew a thing.
The thing that gets me is how can a person hurt or deal with guilt to go through that.To not tell you your secret. And it hurt me because he should of at least told me. I mean he had the guts to take me there , why not the guts to tell me this.
I don't understand this..........
"Its such a shame to see you drifting " - (+44)
"Weatherman"
"It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut." - Blink 182 "Stay Together For The Kids"
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